I am really scared, because I am like my mother, she had me as baby, when she was sixteen. OmG!
And now, I am sixteen and already had sex x(... with Alicia, so that it could be that I would become father. And I don't want to become a dad, because:
a) I am still sixteen,
b) i am not sure, if I really still love Alicia
and c) my future in the college would be blocked ( like when my mum had me as baby).
Sorry, I am really confused, because (I am repeating myself^^) I love Alicia, but I don't love Alicia like before, but she loves me really much. And when she would have a baby, that is really bad.
Fuck, what can I do. TH said that I should wait and see if I am going to become father.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I love Alicia..I don't love her....
I woke up one morning and didn’t feel the same for Alicia as before!! That made me fraking out! Because before, I loved her more than anything else, but now..OmG!
Now it wasn’t really bad, when we couldn’t see each other for one, two or more days. That's so discusting!
And I already talked about leaving her, not loving or missing her..nothing, so, to my mind I have changed really much.
I remember the words of my mum, that if I only go out with Alicia and don't have time for anything else, I would lose the time for other things like skating. I am not sure, if I still love her, but I think I don’t.
In the vening, I asked TH about what he thinks to this. And he said that I should calm down see what will happen...But I cannot wait!
Now it wasn’t really bad, when we couldn’t see each other for one, two or more days. That's so discusting!
And I already talked about leaving her, not loving or missing her..nothing, so, to my mind I have changed really much.
I remember the words of my mum, that if I only go out with Alicia and don't have time for anything else, I would lose the time for other things like skating. I am not sure, if I still love her, but I think I don’t.
In the vening, I asked TH about what he thinks to this. And he said that I should calm down see what will happen...But I cannot wait!
I love Alicica so much
I love Alicia really much, I can’t get enough of her, I think about her all the time and also tell a lot Tony Hawk.Anyway, you know, I cannot forget her. :):). ^^It's a bit weird, ahhh, not a just a bit. ha ha.
Anyway, when there is a day, we can’t see each other, like the evening with my mum by pizza express and in the cinema, I freak out and already think that Alicia would have sex with another person, for example with her ex. Like 'WtF!?'. But if you think now that I am jealous, I can promise you, I am defenetly not! But later she answered, so that I calmed down.:):)
I had already found my dream-girl in Alicia. I was not ever happier!
Anyway, when there is a day, we can’t see each other, like the evening with my mum by pizza express and in the cinema, I freak out and already think that Alicia would have sex with another person, for example with her ex. Like 'WtF!?'. But if you think now that I am jealous, I can promise you, I am defenetly not! But later she answered, so that I calmed down.:):)
I had already found my dream-girl in Alicia. I was not ever happier!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Special evening
Now, I tell you about the special evening by Alicia.
At the first moment by seeing each other, it was boring, because I didn't want to go the party and when we sat in her room, nobody said anything...Boring:(.
But suddenly, Alicia began with the conversation and it was better, because I didn't think bad about her anymore.
Anyway, I liked her more and more and thought about falling in love with Alicia. But then I reminded, that everyone loves her because she is really pretty. So that I wasn't sure, if I have got chances by her.
But when she told about her ''ex-boyfriend'' and sex, I knew, that she wanted to have sex with me, because now she is ready and then she could avenge at her ''ex''. Almost we had sex, but just almost.
Anyway, Alicia asked me for going into the cinema, maybe she would really falled in love with me.
Everything should be secret, but I had to tell friends, because I felt bad, if I wouldn't do this.
After that by Alicia at home, we were going to have sex, almost we hadn't sex, cause I was nervous and not sure, if that's right. But after a moment we had sex. :) I had sex with this pretty girl. I'm so proud of me.. And know, I really love her:):).
At the first moment by seeing each other, it was boring, because I didn't want to go the party and when we sat in her room, nobody said anything...Boring:(.
But suddenly, Alicia began with the conversation and it was better, because I didn't think bad about her anymore.
Anyway, I liked her more and more and thought about falling in love with Alicia. But then I reminded, that everyone loves her because she is really pretty. So that I wasn't sure, if I have got chances by her.
But when she told about her ''ex-boyfriend'' and sex, I knew, that she wanted to have sex with me, because now she is ready and then she could avenge at her ''ex''. Almost we had sex, but just almost.
Anyway, Alicia asked me for going into the cinema, maybe she would really falled in love with me.
Everything should be secret, but I had to tell friends, because I felt bad, if I wouldn't do this.
After that by Alicia at home, we were going to have sex, almost we hadn't sex, cause I was nervous and not sure, if that's right. But after a moment we had sex. :) I had sex with this pretty girl. I'm so proud of me.. And know, I really love her:):).
Tony Hawk
First, I have to say that sometimes, I say TH for Tony Hawk, because it's shorter.
Now, do you know TH? - To my mind, you do, because everyone does, he's the best skateboarder in the world and you have to. If you don't know him, shame on you!
Now, do you know TH? - To my mind, you do, because everyone does, he's the best skateboarder in the world and you have to. If you don't know him, shame on you!
About me
I don't want to have missunderstandings, so, at first, I have to say: 'Skating, not skateboarding! ', because we only say this. ;).
To me. My name is Sam, I'm 16 and I live in Highbury. For fun I go out skating with friends, for this I have to say that I love Tony Hawk, I'm not gay, but euhh... he's my idol. Besides, my parents got divorced.
After that to my parents, my mum is called Annie Jones and she's 32 years old. Moreover, she works in a hotel. Now to my father, he's called Dave Jones and a plumber.
Then to my friends, I just tell you from two of my friends, because otherwise it would be too much to tell. Anyway, Rabbit is in the same age as me and has excellent skating skills. And Rubbish, he's called Rubbish, because he's so bad in skating..oh god. ha ha.
To my mind, you already know the main informations about me, but there are still more. So, I'm a good student, my best subject as school is art and design :) and I hate maths x( ^^.
Now, I have to tell you something really important. I had never told anybody before. When I got into skating, my mum bought me a poster of Tony Hawk. And now,...I am talking to him^^. It's weird, but believe me! At first, I only talked with him about sakting, but now, I also talk with him about things like school, mum, etc. Moreover, I had already read his book ''Hawk - Occupatin: Skateboarder'' for 50 times. And everything he tells to me by talking to him is out of this book. That's the best book ever written! You have to read it ,too! Also if you're not a skater.
To me. My name is Sam, I'm 16 and I live in Highbury. For fun I go out skating with friends, for this I have to say that I love Tony Hawk, I'm not gay, but euhh... he's my idol. Besides, my parents got divorced.
After that to my parents, my mum is called Annie Jones and she's 32 years old. Moreover, she works in a hotel. Now to my father, he's called Dave Jones and a plumber.
Then to my friends, I just tell you from two of my friends, because otherwise it would be too much to tell. Anyway, Rabbit is in the same age as me and has excellent skating skills. And Rubbish, he's called Rubbish, because he's so bad in skating..oh god. ha ha.
To my mind, you already know the main informations about me, but there are still more. So, I'm a good student, my best subject as school is art and design :) and I hate maths x( ^^.
Now, I have to tell you something really important. I had never told anybody before. When I got into skating, my mum bought me a poster of Tony Hawk. And now,...I am talking to him^^. It's weird, but believe me! At first, I only talked with him about sakting, but now, I also talk with him about things like school, mum, etc. Moreover, I had already read his book ''Hawk - Occupatin: Skateboarder'' for 50 times. And everything he tells to me by talking to him is out of this book. That's the best book ever written! You have to read it ,too! Also if you're not a skater.
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