Slam!!

Because of Rubbish, I had a really bad Slam down at the bowl. My leg wasn't broken, but it hurt so much x(. And the worst is that mum said that I cannot skate anymore, cause for the next two years, my life is going to be pushing. And Alicia won't thank if I break a limb. WtF?! It wasn't my fault, it was Rubbish's!! He slept on the ground, where I was skating! And I cannot forget or forgive skating! Expect Roof, that's the most important for me!!

But there's still something good happened. In the moment, I like to live with Mum and Marc.
Mum is like a friend for me, because she is also pregnant. But weird is that her kid will be younger than my one.
And Marc is very cool. He's quite the opposite of dad, he likes Europe and reads a book or the newspaper with words in it. And to my mind, he's a good partner for mum, because she is going to be a 32-year-old-grandmother and Marc is a step forwards, not like mum backwards. So, I like him enough and I am glad that he is around mum.
My life is going to turn good:).

My baby's name?!

First when I woke up, I dressed my t-shirt with a symbol of Tony Hawk and fire. What a nice one...Anyway, in this dream I knew the name of Mark's daugther, Emily. And my son, called Roof, was two years old.

In the beginning, I was at home with Mum, Mark and Emily. Suddenly, Alicia came and asked me if I can bring Roof to the doctor for his jab. So, I asked why, but then I brought him to the doctor.
But when the woman behind the desk asked for his name, I wasn't sure, if his name was R. Jones or R. Burns x(. But I said Jones, because that's my name and I am the father. But there wasn't R. Jones at the list on her computer. Then I asked for R. Burns. And she asked, what his full name is. I said Roof, but that also wasn't right, because nobody called Roof was at the list. F***!
So that we had to go back. On the way, I asked him for his name. He said: 'Rufus', now I knew his name, but to go back to the doctor was to embarrassing for me. When we met Alicia, we just said that he got the jab.
After that I went home and talked with my mum about Alicia, Roof and especially me.

Moving in by Alicia?!

Yeah, it's not a joke, I will have got a new family!
But the point is that I don't want to.
When I was by Alicia, we talked to Andrea and Robert. These are Mr. and Miss. Burns, so,..her parents.
So,...there we talked about Alicia's future and mine with the baby. About where we will live, etc.
And Alicia just said that WE want to live in their house together. 'I thought: Sorry, what?!' I didn't want to and she still didn't talk to me about that. Her parents were shocked really much and me too. But I had to say that I also mean to, because otherwise that would be bad for our baby. Cause she would think that I don't want to live with her together, so that it would be bad for the baby, if we live divorced. And she also wouldn't be sure, if I still really love her.
That would be really bad, because I have just done that it looks like I would love her. And that would be really bad for our baby.
After that, I was skating with Rubbish. And I was jealous of him, because....yeah of course he cannot skating -Rubbish- ...but he hasn't got problems with his real live like me. Rubbbish has a better life, I would repeat this again and again- But...Rubbish!! :( That's so embarrassing.
Later, when I was back home, my mum talked to me about me living by Alicia. Apparently her mum talked to her. mum wasn't really happy about that news, but.. the problem is that I don't mean to live with her together.
But if I would be honest that would be bad for Alicia, so that for the baby.....  It's Weird!

List from NCT

~ wake up every night - no sleep
~ be sensible
~ poverty
~ less freedom
~ grow up too fast
~ society's and family's acceptanc
~ stress
~ a hard job
~ love [wow..positiv  :-P ]
~ spend a lot (money,time...)
~ living forever with your partner
~ give up many hobbies
~ etc.

NCT classes

Maybe not everyone does know, what NCT means, so.... it stands for  Something Childbirth Something. This was so horrible, becuase there are only people who are older than my mum.
So, before the hospital, there we wanted to know, if all is fine. And everything is okay. Me-> Happy face! :)
And the fisrt (new) kiss with Alicia, it's a nice time now.
But by the NCT classes, there were people such as my teacher. At the beginning, I didn't want to go in, but for Alicia I did. Later, we both thought that we should go somewhere where are people in our age. Because we should be the kids of the others in the classes called NCT classes. So..okay, back to the NCT classed.
First, we had to sit in a circle and say our names to everyone.
After that, we had to write down positive and neagtive aspects that we expect from fatherhood.
My next post will be the list!

And that's our baby:

Should we keep the baby?

It's so difficult, Alicia totaly wants to have the baby. But I don't want to become father and....okay, I also don't want to kill the baby, but ..arrr I don't know what to do. Because we are 16 and we still go to school, so that having a baby is really complicated, you are stressed so much, but Alicia totaly wants to keep the baby.
But.., our future!!:( I am still good at school and don't have time for looking after a baby every time.

TH said that we should keep it, because otherwise we would kill the baby and he also told that to be going to have a baby is something to be happy about not to worry about, also if I am still a teenager.