Goodbye

Hey guys,
this is my last post.
So that I want to summarize my posts for you if you don't want to read them again:
I met Alicia, a very nice girl, and directly had sex with her. Then, she got pregnant and I was very confused and didn't want to become father:(, I left home and..in general, I didn't know what to do. Later, when we already had the baby, we split up, because didn't really love her anymore. Now, I see Roof whenever I want to and I am still skateboarding and studying. And I am really happy that we kept the baby, I am really proud of Roof:)

So, I just want to tell you that you should know a girl to have sex with. And you also should put a condom on. Don't make the same mistakes that I've done.
But I also want to tell you that you shouldn't give up your hobbies also if you have to look after a baby....I know the baby is more important, but sometimes you should go out skating or whatever your hobby is.

Now, I am finish and I hope you enjoy your teenage life! Be carful.

Bye,
your Sam

Roof

Really nice pic, isn't it?

If u have got questions, ask!

Chinese restaurant

Someday, I was woken up by my mobile beeping, I was in a bus going down Uper Street and next to me sat a pretty girl. But, whats's going on?! She talked to me, so that she knew me, but I didn't know her and I didn't know the reason for me sitting in this bus. Anyway, the mobile was beeping, I got an SMS from Alicia, she asked, where we were. I didn't know, what's going on, again!^^
After that, we, the pretty girl and me, got off at the Green and walked to a Chinese restaurant.Hmm, I like chinese food:). Alicia was sitting there with her boyfriend, called Carl. But, I didn't know, why...Anyway, Carl had long, dark, side-parted hair and a goatee. Then, I got to know, which name the pretty girl on my side had. She was called Alex.
The conversation of Alicia, Carl, Alex and me was about Roof and later the girls also talked about school. They said that I am in the same course as Alex and they also said that I have a part- time job. And...... that I would had given my skateboard away!! What the hell?! Skating?! But that wasn't everything, I listened that Alex is my new girlfriend, because she sleeps with me, so...she had to be. Great, this pretty girl :).

 I had a dream again :D, I was whizzed into future by Tony Hawk, again.^^
In my opinion, Tony Hawk was trying to tell me that I can take care of kids and find some money from somehwere. In general, he was trying to tell me that I can do my life and wouldn't have lots of problems with school, Roof and Alicia.

Seperation

So, to my mind,the time is very fast. I am 18 and so is Alicia, Roof is nearly two, my sister one and my parents aren't old, yet.
And now I give answeres to some questions. But I just tell you the answeres, because telling the questions would spent to much time.

1)Anyway, first to my sister Emily, she was born in the same hospital like Roof. But weird is that she is the aunt and younger than Roof.^^
Then, to the question if I realy had a day like in the future with Roof and his injections. Yes, when Alicia had a cold, so that I had to go with Roof to the doctor's. But on the day, I did know his name.
2)So, do I still talk to Tony Hawk? - We'll see^^.
3)And college, there's all fine, ok, not all, but the most.
4)Now to Alicia, the most interesting theme. In the evening, after we were in the Finsbury Park, we had sex, so that Alicia thought that we are together, again.Ahhh. The problem was that we slept in Rich's bedroom, Andrea came into the room on the next morning and said that we should come donwstirs fora conversation. But I don't want to tell you about that, it was too long. I just tell you about the end. Finally, I said Alicia that I don't love her anymore much enough for a realtionship. And I said it to her directly.

So, if I should give me a mark for my life. I would give me eight out of ten points for how I'm getting on with what I've got to do every day - Roof, college and all that. And for my life marks, i wouldsay not higher than three...^^


What do u think about the seperation, was it right, to do that, or not? Just comment.

And Roof?

Last, I've moved out by Alicia. So, in general, we split up. But now, we've got a problem. What's with Roof?! Oh my god!

Anyway, I have to tell you about the Internet, there you can find everything. And last, when I found the book of the Prime Minister in the Internet, I saw that 80% of teenager fathers lose touch with their kids, 80!! Same by me?!
After that, I went to Alicia to talk about that. Then, before the bathroom, we had a big conversation. A few minutes later, Andrea came cause we were so loud. Alicia saidto her that I was out with another girl, what wasn't real. And she also said that I could forget to see Roof anymore, but Andrea gave me the right.
Then, we went downstairs into the kitchen and sat down, we talked about that 80% lose touch with their kids and what's about us to this. Andrea said that Alicia ment it ironic that she got stressed before. Now, it was okay, also if it wasn't ironic. After this I saw Roof and went back home.

But wthat's with Roof now, I want to see him everytime, but Alicia is angry, because of me moving out. What can I do?!

Dad's visit

A couple of days later, my dad called me and wanted to see me. Finally, he will come to see Roof. So, we decided to meet us at Alicia's house,so, now, it's also mine, cause I sleep in there. Anyway, after that, I took the poster of Tony Hawk and put it on the wall, so that I could talk with him, we talked about his life and also about mine, but I put it away after this conversation, because I didn't have something to talk anymore.
So, when dad came, Roof, him and me went out to Italian restaurant on Highbury Park. There we drank beer and suddenly, he said that Alicia is a lovely girl and her parents also are great, but then he said that it cannot work with Alicia and me, because we have to look after Roof all the time and don't look at each other anymore. Aaaand that we are still 16 and don't have a time before all that, so that we don't really know eacht other. But, to my mind, one year is enough, so, Alicia was pregnant in this year, but the baby wasn't on the world at this long time. Hmm, he just wanted to help me.
A few minutes later, I went home, but I had a cold and coughed a lot, so that Alicia didn't want me to sleep next to her or Roof.
I decided to go to my old home, where I lived my hole life. After a small talk with mum, I went into my bedroom, but it was too quite. I couldn't here Roof. Then I talked to Tony Hawk. I'd taken the poster home with me, of course^^. So, I've moved out by Alicia.

Jason bloody Gerson!!

In the middle of the night, I woke up and Alicia said: 'He's awake.Your turn.' It was directly like when I was whizzed into the future.Everything was the same, but everything also wasn' the same...I know that's weird. So, everything was the same means that I woke up in the night and Roof needs changing. But not different was that I answered to Alicia's question if I love her, because back in the future I said nothing, but now, I said: 'Of course.' That's just an example, because every other details were different, just the general points were the same.
Anyway, next morning, when I went to college. Outside the classroom, I saw another guy from schooland I nooded at him. But he was really agressive and said that he's Roof's father. When he said that Alicia is a slag and still had fucked with everyone, I kicked him in the balls. That was a bit agressive of me, but he called Alicia as a bitch. And she is my baby's mother, so, what should I have done?!?
After school, I had a big discussion with Alicia and when I asked her about his name, she said it was Jason bloody Gerson, her ex-boyfriend!! The discussion really didn't find an end, she thought that Roof wouldn't interest me, I wouldn't love her and that I would be happy if Roof was his son, because my future isn't ruined then.Okay, the last point is true. Enough about this talk.

Later, I went out skating and when I was back, Alicia had to go. So that I was alone with my mum, sorry, I don't know why she was in there, and Roof. Just the three of us.

My new family

On september the 13, I moved into Alicia's house.But...I don't really want to, because I don't love Alicia anymore!! Problem is that I feel homesick, but mum said that it isn't for ever. We'll see.
Anyway in Alicia's bedroom Alicia and me decorated. We took away her Donnie Darko poster and put up the alphabet thing. Later, mum, Mark, Alicia's mum, Alicia, Rufus and me sat down in the room. Noone said anything, but everyone looked at Alicia fedding Roof, so, at her breasts.
A few minutes later, Mark went out of the room. And I also wanted to, but Alicia said that I live here and said to the others to go out. Then, it was still her, Roof and me.
Quite later, I pu my TH poster down on the bed, but Alicia ment that it cannot be put up in the room. And I couldn't tell her that I talked to Tony Hawk in this moment. I do it later.

Rufus' birth

On september 12
Before, I was at Alicia's home and met her in the bathroom. It was funny, because she was naked so that I could see her fat tummy well. Of course that is normal, because she is pregnant, but that looks really strange.
Later, at the hospital, I was really nervous, because it was Rufus birth. That's so exciting!!:) But when I wanted to help Alicia, she was agressive to me, but her mum took along her cd-player with slow music which relaxed Alicia. But I hate this music and by the birth, we listened  to Rufus Wainwright and it also wasn't really cool, because everywhere was so much blood,slime and a bit shit of Alicia^^. So,euhh..back to the singer, you know that I was whizzed into the future twice and that the baby's name in the second one was Rufus. So that I wanted the baby called Rufus, but Alicia's parents didn't want to and they also wanted the baby called Burns as surname, then we had a big discussion, because my mum wanted that it is called Jones like me.
But a bit later, Alicia said that the baby is called Rufus Jones and I was really happy about that. Happy face :):):) -> Me. That was really kind of her!!;)

Best day in my life!! I'm so lucky that Roof is my baby.